Wednesday, November 24, 2004
'love is' is playing.
i saw
him today. at lido. we watched da same movie.
he was sitting a few rows in front of me. wif a girl.
his special someone? i dunno. i couldnt believe my eyes. i just stared. my eyes just followed him all da way to da toilet. my heart froze. and my stomach felt constricted. i was just stuck in my chair. eyes wide open. mouth gapping and all. so entirely self-conscious..
its been so long. well maybe not dat long. wat 9mths plus. today was like living out a dream. i dream dat one day i'd just bump into
him liddat. a dream i had sucha a long time ago. it juz felt so wierd seeing dat it had actually come to live..
it was so weird. and my insides were so messed up. not at all how i should be reacting. once da movie ended. i sat. until i could sit no longer due to time constraints. and den onli i got up. and we took da furthest exit from him. praying dat
he hadnt spotted me. i just didnt think i could face
him den..
whilst we walked away from lido. i kept looking back. looking to da sides. after a while. i think i forgot. i love you
sufi! we took neoprints. and even though one of da stupid pens couldnt work. they still turned out so nicely. i was happie. no sign of
him. at all..
and den. this was so unexpected! we saw TOM!!! whislt walking back to da mrt! haha. he didnt see us though. and
sufi was like damn!! i should haf reacted quicker! and gone like FLORA...!!! or sth. haha. her words
'wat a beatiful ending to da day' realli hit deep. and i realli thought dat was da end..
but no. when i got off at tanah merah. i turned back as da train was pulling away. and there
he was. how qiao can it get man. but somehow. i wasnt surprised. cuz somehow. i think subconsciously. i knew dat i was gonna see
him again. at least one more time. all da wierdness and funniness. it just came flooding back. i walked so fast i tell you. so so fast..
i haf no clue as to why i reacted in dat sort of way. sitting here typing this entry. im still feeling everything. da heaviness of my heart. da breathless moments. all of it..
was it too sudden? totally caught off-gaurd. our meeting. wif da one guy dat had alwaez been captured in my memories. and in my heart. as being perfect. some memories last foreva. and da ones
he left me wif. they'll alwaez be recalled. and remembered by. wif da fondest of smiles. locked foreva in dat special corner of my heart..
there. ive said it all. feeling alot better now. ive sinced moved on. realli. just sometimes. when da past catches you by suprised. you get hit especially hard..
thank you to
sufi. for helping me forget. sorrie if i wasnt such a good movie partner today. *jack-jack is soooo..... cute!* :)
to my
darling. and to
carol. thank you. for just reacting when i msged..
and to my
dearest. im so glad i was able to tell why why i didnt go. i love you so much. take care k. and i hope my *magic happiness dust* help. *
ra huggz
sam super titely!*
training tml..
delon and
ju. and
tracy and
carol. and
seanie! wish you guyz could haf made it today. missing you'll loads..
bye bye.
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