Thursday, December 23, 2004
kai bu liao kou is playing.
went back to school for castor stuff today..
finished da placards. well almost. its so prettie. and wei ying. i think its real nice. no matter wat you think. and da banner's almost done up too. left juz da sewing part. and da covering of all da unwanted splatters of paint.
i did a lot today. and obviously so did da rest.
but somehow.im unable to say. im unable to tell myself. 'ra. its ok. da tiredness. da wanting to cry moments because only 8 pple turned up to do da banner/placard stuff. and all those other mission seemingly impossible moments. you'll realise how all this is worth it at da end. you know you will..
dats how i survived 2ndO. i was so proud of castor. so so tired after each day. but ever so proud. and dun get me wrong. i still am. and i know in my heart i alwaez will. three orientations in da same orientation house. dats sth definitely to be proud of. and me being sucha emotional person. it means a hell lot. i could never imagine myself being in another orientation house. *yes yan. even if you get to take charge of da same og as my eye candy* i couldnt. dats me. as loyal as anyone could ever be. pure castorian for life..
and no i definitely dun think its a sign dat we'll not be able to retain our championship. cuz if anyone around has forgotten. we are leading da pack..
i juz think its sth to do wif me. im trying too hard to get lost in everything. but its not been working. im trying so so hard. i wanna get lost in doing little little stuff for my frenz. i wanna design my notice board. i wanna buy more interesting stuff from ikea to do up my room. i wanna paint my room dark purple. i wanna get lost in decorating my xmas tree. i wanna decorate da new photo frame my mu stile from school. i wanna get so tired out from all my castor stuff. i wanna go out and go out and go out..
i just dun wanna stay home. i dun wanna think abt my enormous pile of hw. i dun want da feeling of guilt to overwhelme me. i dun wanna keep thinking of how all these minutes i spent thinking abt my hw should actually be spent by me actually doing it. i dun want my mum nagging away at me. she's trying to get me to do some stupid research on da cold war and da atomic bomb and wat shit. i dun wanna miss having someone to miss..
im resisting reality. childish eh. and spoilt. and i know there's a whole string of words used to describe such pple. but i cant seem to remb them at da moment. but ain't it juz all so.. real? dats da sad part..
everybody i know has already started posting up their 2004 recaps. and here i am sighing my freakin life away. i think i told my sis a few days ago. 'shan. god. i juz feel like whining my life away.' there's juz too many things in life to whine abt. and sigh abt. and question. *sigh* see wat i mean? get a grip rara..
to my frenz out there. dun start getting all panicky k. i'll be fine after a while..
moomoo! ive missed you dude. dun forget my OT grass. haha! :)
sufi darling! i promise to hold your hand. and be your eyes for as long as it takes. dats abt 18 hrs i think. from now until tml evening when your new spects arrive! haha. cya tml! :)
and lastly to my darling class! yay! tml we're gonna haf class outing!. seoul garden finally.. :)
*sweet sweet dreamz*
'..bear wid us..'
Posted by paint me purple_ at 12:23 AM
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