Monday, January 10, 2005
true is playing. im so totally in love wif this song.
aniwae. im suffering from major post-orientation depression. i want nth more den to wake up at 545 in da morning. get all panick all over again. worrying away if i had forgotten to bring my bag of identities or my ogl tee. i want nth more den to sit thru da morning briefing by da councillors. i want nth more to hear shahrul give us his motivational-speech for da day. i want nth more den to do our ogl
CASTOR!!! cheer before each jam-packed yet so so fun-filled day. i want nth more den to take da attendence of my darling
castor 3. to greet each one of them. and in turn be greeted by their cheery smiles. i want nth more den to tell them wat new identities we've got for them each morning.to fret abt whether we're gonna do well during da morning/afternn's planned activity..
i want nth more den to shout my throat hoarse. cherring war cry wif them. doing fever wif dat oioioh..-hothothot!-action cheer. i want nth more den to sing our
castor song. i want nth more den to cheer our most famous fly-kite cheer. da clapping. da stamping.. i want nth more den to do da mass dances wif them. to go ard trying to pair all da potential couples up! *ahem..* i want nth more den to suffer doing da new couple dance wif kifa! [we suck so bad at it!]. i want nth more den to spend more more and more og time wif my
castor 3. da teasings. da gossips. da scheming. da fun. da smiles. da joy. da laughter. i want nth more den to wait anxiously for da announcing for da placings of each hse at da end of each day. i want nth more den to busily running up and down da sch trying to get everything in place for our campfire. i want nth more.. den orientation all over again..
this is bad. i miss it so very very badly. da noise. da cheers. da atmosphere. da pple. da high-ness. da everything..
da minute i stepped into school this morning. i felt so free. so so happie. i saw so many so mnay
castor ogls. they juz kept popping up everywhere! haha. and we juz couldnt stop beaming at each other. everything we felt on friday nite. its not sth dat can be so easilt forgotten. sheer bliss. exhileration. da adrenaline rush. da tears of joy. its gonna linger for a long long time to come. and each time i met one of my
castor 3 pple along da corridor. and when xin le suddenly appeared out of nowhere and hugged me from behind in da canteen! oh man!! da feelings juz come flooding back. *super big smile!* haha. and watching them play bball in da courts today. i was juz contented sitting there and watching them. like a realli realli proud mother watching her little ones. im not implying dat im their mother or wat. but i am so proud of my
castor 3. so very very proud of them. even
carol noticed. she said,'
ra, you're so lucky to haf them.. '
and my class pple kept telling me to stop smiling to myself for no apparent reason in da middle of lectures today. i realli didnt know whether to laugh or to cry. lucky i had meera wif me. we were like silently [i onli haf half my voice back] cheering during GP..
and as i sit here thinking abt tml. all da fils my mind is my
castor 3. its as if i haf nth else to look forward to. dun i not haf so much so much more things to care abt. yes i do. of cuz i do. im j2 this yr. i haf so much so much to think abt. but thinking of them gets me da happiest. dats da onli explaination i can offer. my motivation! thank you my dears. my earth angels..
to
you: im so sorrie for everything dat you haf to go thru. and im sorrie all i can do is listen and cry. i love you. and i'll alwaez be here. thank you for trusting me so much. *huggz*
to my
dearest: sorrie ive neglected you cuz of my orientation. i miss you loads. i hope your knee's much much better. dnd your days haf been filled wif much much laughter. *super tite huggz!*
'..seeing is suffering.
keep your eyes shut.
all go to sleep now.
and nothing will hurt..'
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