Monday, February 28, 2005
sometimes when we touch is playing.
ive been living in my own little world in recent days. i need my alone time.
something interesting. volleying gets me da happiest on court. its da ultimate feeling of accomplishment. da ultimate highness. i can feel when im on court. and wat happens when. you know you're mistake. but yet somehow, no matter how hard you seem to be pushing your mind, your actions just dun follw. i missed countless sitters today. and i got realli disappointed wif myself. cuz why. i was doing realli well wif da tougher shots. but when da sitters came. i just lost it. and i think qing could see it.
stupid above paragraph dat made completely no sense at all..
im feeling so mellow rite now. is dat even da correct spelling? like just da slightest thing dat happens rite now can make me cry. i want da greatest love of all cd. it has everything in it..
i feel like crying. not outta sadness. not outta depression realli. but just cause i feel like it. watching 'someone like you' realli set me off on sat. it was such a lovely show. and haha caroline, another name to add to your list of hunks. *caroline JACKMAN.. everyone can see just how well dat flows rite? heh..
i felt so funnie in school today. was it cuz my little j1s were getting back their results? im sure it played apart. thank god for econs lect first period every monday. i went to da hall wif carol and shushu to watch da slides da school had prepared for da j1s. and seriously, i was close to tears. and den i just went on a hugging rampage. whoever i met, i just hugged. my wonderful og. my wonderful jr class. stupid eye candy had only to appear after i left lah. but my og.. we just somehow all MET in da middle of da hall. you guys haf played such a sprcial role in my life im so grateful to haf come to know you'll..
jolynn. its ok yar gal. and i realli know how it feels, but comparing is realli of no use at da moment. vic, my and alot of others' eternal nice guy, im sure youi'll get accepted. kx. i think i need you to stay. appeal appeal appeal until you get in k. castor needs pple like you. yj, larry, kai jia, sweedy, i know you guyz pulled thru prettie well. congrats my dears. and to da rest of you'll, i haf just da greatest faith in you guyz. may you'll get into da jc of your choice. *im gonna be missing you guyz like crazie man..
back to da i felt so funnie in school part. other contributing factors? overload of infomation regarding some stuff maybe. thank you lord, for caroline.
i had 5 free periods in scool today know. not too good. but i realli cant decide which is worse. having wayyy too many free periods (esp during times when your mind seems to wander endlessly), or not having ANY free periods. i.e. i cant decided whether today (5 free periods), or tml (NO free periods) is gonna be worse.
last, or one of da last ontributing factors. i think i realli screwed up my geog test. i HAF to go for onsultation. dats realli realli sad. =(
hurdles was wayy fun today. rite liza? only da 2 of us seem to be enjoying pe these few weeks. and den it kinda started drizzling. and i almost started to cry. cuz dat'd haf meant dat trg wif da guyz would not be possible today. thank you lord for loving me da most! haha. you love lionel just as much as me too! it stopped. da feelings somwhow had changed. but da familarity of having them ard. da clicking of our rackies. da slapping of hands. da teasings. da knowing looks. regarding CERTAIN pple. or da ones which read, you can do it. c'mon. da next round's gonna be better.. da way 5,4,3,2,1 was made so fun! haha..
i love you guyz so damn much. and dinner.. =)
my tennis pple. you guyz make up so much of my world. thank you so much for everything. EVERYTHING.. all da ups and all da downs. im staking claim of title of in-hse counsellor forever man. its MINE MINE MINE!! =)
and thank you dear. for da rose, and da earrings. you make me feel so loved.
moomoo.. hy has taken to calling you dat too. heh.. you can ok.
you.CAN.do.it.
im tired. and feeling absolutele horrible and scared and angry at myself cuz of my studies. and oh-so. and tired. but somehow. happie, or is da word 'blissful'?, cuz of da presence of da so many pple who haf touched my heart in my life.
hugely ironic. yet if you think abt it. as rickson already mentioned in his blog, you need all da scary and shitty and ugly stuff present in your life in order to appreciate da gentleness and sensitivity and care dats showered upon you. haha. dats so true, but it kinda has no relation to wat im saying rite..
random thoughts? im in my owm little self-created world remb?
nite nite. =)
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