Tuesday, April 19, 2005
some sad sad malay song is playing now. suhaila and liza are singing along to it. anything to indulge my moods rite.
felling so fucked up rit now. not to be able to run. not to be abe to walk. not being able to play your favourite sportdat must be. and probably is one of da most helpless feelings in da world.
ive known so many people to have had to gone thu such shit. been thru it myself. to feel so restricted on court. indecisive as to whether you should just go al out during dat particular trg, or preserve yourself for tournament da following day. to walk, when all da rest of da bloody pe cohourt is running, on da track. to want to take part in track and field meet but be sure whether your legs will carry you thru. to want to take part in 'a' div so so bad but not without da fear in you dats holding you back cuz you know you might not be da best choice for your beloved team.
da tearss. da pain. da trembles. da helplessness. da frustrations. unthinkable. unbearable.
and now my dearest sam and hy. ive not fully survived da shit yet. but you guyz haf got it alot worse den i haf. i know you guyz are taking good care. so be strong k. creams. sprays. surgery. be it at badminton or tennis. their our toppest priorities at da moment. we'll pull thru.
~i want to run again. i want to play again.
Posted by paint me purple_ at 11:37 AM
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